* ::: Haiz... ::: *

School wan re-open already, i feel very scared, last year my classmate all fight v me only, now wan open school jor, feel so scared leh...Dont know what can i do...hope nth anymore lo. Haiz...

Dont talk about them, think about it also wan vomit, let say...."something"
Just now i saw one best friend(i like him be4) profile, i saw he have alot girl's friend already,
I feel so...."happy"....last time he not really famous about that, but...now he are...
I very happy about this...i wish he can have new love again, dont wan sad anymore,
I dont know what happen v him, but i really wish he happy, i like him, and i understand him,
Because understand that why i need to give him up, now be friend not good meh ?
Good, just less contact anymore, cause he have alot girl's friend meet mah ^^all going out together ...
All play together, all happy together, this is great right ?

Haiz....dont know la , i really wish can always chatt v him, always stay v him, but...
I cant, see he have alot girl's friend already...i...is time to leave him ? not means wan really leave him la,
It means dont wan always kacau him jor lo...Haha, as he say "ppl dont love u , y u still wan go find ppl?"
This right ^^ so....Give me time !!! i almost wan give him up jor ^^ yeah yeah ^^

And elson now, talk him i also wan angry !! Yesterday phone me say he wan die die jor, cause sick !
Then i worry so care him lo, ask him to see doctor he say dont wan, ask him go buy 100 plus drink he say no energy, then suddenly quite jor, i thought he sleep jor so off phone lo. Then i go back play computer , i think think think are him fall down ? i very worry so i phone him back, who know...

He sound let me hear are not sick, so happy leh somemore tell me he go out "lan gai", then i very angry and say nth jor, see he so happy jor then i off phone lo...who know at night he phone me he sound become so sick again ! i damn angry and scold him !!

"Ma Ci Bek, u dont wan suddenly like wan die make ppl worry ok ? When ppl worry then u look like nth ! Ma Chao Hai ah, i dont wan worry u anymore la! Diu !"

Then he keep laughing, zha dao man ! Then at the end also off phone jor, haiz...dont wan choi gao him la...
Then ? Go eat dinner lo, at night my sis friend come (boy), i very hou hui do one thing v him...
I....kiss him, cause he say i not dare to kiss him, but i dare what...when i kiss him already i just know i wrong...
I....haiz...WHEN I BECOME LIKE THIS K !!! But lucky i kiss he face only, somemore not so hard...
Haiz...i think i long time no kiss ppl jor, hahah XD nvm la, i will control next time, dont cin cai kiss ppl XD
Cause i dont wan my next bf will think me so bad XD muahahah XD

Aiya , k la, i stop crazy la, byebye XD

~ ::: Wow, first time write friends ::: ~

Will, today wan start talk about friends thing, dont wan talk love anymore Y_Y
Erm, just now i was boring so i go find friend blog open and see...
Dont know why i wish to see Yin Yin blog XD haha XD
When i saw her blog always fight v that COPY CAT >.<" i also feel so funny XD
Did you guys feel like watching movie when reading their blog ?
I means funny not means she so childish, cause when i was reading her blog look like i was reading novel ^^
Keep Fight Fight,so funny and make me feel wan see again and again XD haha XD
Girls fighting so scary oo....Really Better Quite The Most Good XD

Last time i still feel pity v that COPY CAT, so wish Yin Yin dont be so bad v her.
But When i finish reading Yin Yin blog i just know, NO, that COPY CAT cant pity.
Who also will wrong, but if u listen what ppl say and changes that was good,
Friends sure can copy what friends done and have.
But cant be over. Girls have few thing cant be same is "Bf, shirt, Pants, Bag,else"
If you say food same then ok lo, watching same magazine then also suan lo.
But for me if Yin Yin like eat sushi i also like ah, it means i copy her? Why ppl will say COPY CAT no say me?
Cause sushi also have alot different shop k mah, for me very cin cai wan, got sushi eat which shope also can XD
But for COPY CAT? Maybe same like Yin Yin the shop again XD haha , who know ?

Magazine i less read, but i know popteen, 17, or else. But That not i buy k o, so dont say me copy o XD
HEHE XD jkjk la XD I no buy magazine cause my mum will buy XD she very like fahsion wan XD
For me cin cai then can lo XD But why COPY CAT this also wan follow k ?
Hei Yin Yin, did u have tell her u wear what bra and underwear? Did she got follow anot ?
HAHAH XD If this really wan COPY then she totally better go DIE XD

COPY CAT, sorry for calling you like this, actually i dont know what ur name also. >.<"
Last time in fs see ur profile have pic together and same v Yin Yin thought you are her best friend.
Who know...You...i really dont know how to say u la...no ppl are ugly and cheap,
But why u wan make urself cheap ? You do this all not look like best and good or you win,
I have read ur profile be4, it all make you feel cheap only...pls la, dont make broke girls face k ?

Dont make me scold you also k ? Dont make me say something you dont wish to hear ok ?
PS: hope you will be good one day, god bless you.

` ::: --- Memory Pic Me And Yan --- ::: `

First time Meeting at one utama,

When he birthday, 14.04.07

I first time see him and hug him ^^ feel warm XD

I missing him so muchXD

He Was Cute!!!

At The Time XD

On 30.9.07 At One Utama again.

The Second time i meet him.

I will remember that day because...

On That Day i give my first kiss to him.

Btw That Time i'm not he gf,

He have others gf...And i be a bad girl Y_Y

When i first time broken v him i do it...

I love him so much *That Time*

When We Broke Untill He So Hurt.

He Do This For Me.

I Very Gam Dong And Back V Him.

I...Really Cant Forgot.

See What He Write? Forever Shin Is Forever Bing.

I Know This Words From Here.

But I'm Sure He Already Forgot It.

This is when he scold me,

No More chance back,

And he angry me that time,

i make it, and send this to him.

Then Together back again XD

When Just Together v him,

And We Never Meet Be4.

I Do This All For Him XD

This Yellow is the one and only one i super love.

First time edit it for him,

My heart feel so warm and happy.

Really cant forgot this pic,

That time i was still young and full love him.

And i wish can forever stay v him.

Last Time He On So Many Time Webcam And Show Me.

I Take He Pic Alot^^

So Fun And Happy Can See My Lao Gong Zai That Time^^

When we meet the fist day ^^

I take he pic XD

When he was eating XD

Even untill now, For me, he was the best 4ever.

I really wish...can kiss him one more time.

But No More reason For kissing Him.

We Are Friend now.

Normal friends.

This All Is my memory...v him...all Sweet memory i love it.Never Ever Forgot...Let Me Say One More Time....I love Him So much so much...4ever And Ever loving him non stop.Love shin Always, He 4ever in part of my life. Shin, u are mine, i love u so deep deep. Our sweet memory i never forgot k...Take Care and have a sweet dream. Love Ya...

~ ::: New Life Yeah ::: ~

Today morning that for patrick wake me up ^^ haha , that why i just no late for going out v my mum ^^
After that we go buy eat and drink for my aunt...then i go her house eat and play v her ^^
This few day when i go her house also watching movie ^^ then keep talking funny thing v her XD
Somemore she very ham sap Y_Y keep ZHA me Y_Y then i fall down from sofa...haha XD
funny oo ^^

Always at 2.00pm my mum come and fetch me also, go for learning undang there.
I go there learn undang for 2 week already...i still haven can exam it Y_Y
So scary oo...keep learn learn learn also haven know...
But tomorrow mum bring me and younger sis go make pastspot ^^
Haha , happy neh XD but when i tell ah boy this he look like worry me where am i go ?
Haha , no go any where la , i will stay in malaysia k la XD hahha XD

Well, continue afternoon, same like others day also, at 4.30pm i walk back to my mum office also.
Hoho, today very funny , mum phone me, sis phone me, all say wan come and fetch me, haha XD
I say no need la, so fast will be there k la XD But all worry XD Last time also like this k, keep walking XD
Car was too much i agree, but...normal la , i live there for 10 year be4 k XD now just move house already only.
But be4 sis come and fetch me i walk walk walk untill half i let one motor block me XD
Have two chinesse boy there XD when i saw behide that guy i thought is my friend..
Then see again i just know...wrong person XD haha XD then they ask what my name ? handphone number ?
Then say "Are we see be4?" haha , i smile smile then walk away jor...hahah XD

Very very funny la them XD I walk walk walk then sis find me jor XD hahah XD
I thought first sis have meet mum and second sis also. Cause when i off phone v mum then first sis phone me.
She say she wan fetch me, Zha Dao mor? Hahaha XD She was late for going watch movie,
I early ask her no need fetch me k la, is normal i always walk like this XD Nothing also ^^ Hehe ^^
But if think negative , i will think they dont trust me, they thought i go kao zai...haiz...
Sure la, who ask no one believe me k meh...hahah XD
But anyway, i just like walk, i feel walk so long way i very happy ^^ no need think too much ^^

So meet sis jor, then go back home v them XD hehe ^^
At night Yan phone me , then i ask him what happen ? He say nth, then i say oh , nth then off phone lo.
Then he off lo, Later i send back msg for him, i say ...
"Next time have anything just phone me, i dont wan watse ur phone money , take care ah leng liu XD"
Then he phone me chatting XD he say he there alot birds XD haha XD
He very scared them make shit on he head XD Funny leh XD Chatt Chatt Chatt i ask him y no go kao liu k?
Then he say no oo, then i say "what u do everyday?" He say still same...
Then i ask how same ? "Alone? or have gf ?" then he say "Wake up make love wake up make love"

Then i lauht him, "You can mor? So make time ah ? HHAHAH XD" then i say actually i'm not free everyday.
Yesterday night i also busy so cant answer he phone. I tell him i already have sex v someone...
But the true is have anot ? I dont wan tell u all XD hahah XD
Then he off phone, he send msg to me say "we dont contact anymore better"
I reply him "You need know we already broke, dont always chatt like very ai mei. You have ur life i have my life. I really dont wish lost u this friend. I wish can contact v u again. But if u think no more contact was good then i nth say. Wish u happy everyday. sweet dream and bye."

I was telling the true, how come he look like i'm still love him or he still love me ?
If i really go make love v someone why he angry for ? He also have go sex v that girk two time.
And others also, what i say ? nth ? He never love me, and i no love him anymore.
He hurt me so i hurt him also. I already told him "I love shin, but i'm not love u this elson. Everything is over"
This correct right ? I dont wan cry and hurt and jealous anymore. And dont wan love anymore.
I very happy now, finally can put him down. So i keep sms v him let him feel better.
After that nth jor , we become normal chatt jor ^^ haha XD

Anything was past, so no need think too much XD i have others friend chatt again ^^
Know more new friend ^^hehe ^^ Keep chating untill crazy XD hahah XD
No more bad mood lo XD no more cry XD hehe ^^
Just now just finish chatt v ah boy XD And just now open webcam for him see i make new hair stye XD
Like emo XD very funny ^^ Then keep chatting v him ^^ haiz...He say he loveless...Y ?
Ah Boy u are my ah boy, u are the best in my heart, dont be sad k ? Cheer up....soh lin here ^^
Hahaha XD this worlds alot girl , dont sad sad la...sayang sayang ^^

Heheh ^^ Will, tomorrow mum bring me go make pastsport, so i wan offline now.
Now was 12.36am leh XD Hehehe ^^ Tomorrow wan take pic, sure wan leng leng face XD
Hehehe ^^ So i stop here la ^^ Miss ya all my friend ^^ hehe ^^ Love you all so much ^^
Muacks ^^

PS: Forever shin is for forever bing, No more shin means no more bing. Some Ppl was dont understand it. Shin gone bing also gone, He is elson now, so i'm also michelle now. He keep so cold and hurting me , and i become play girl too. Everything was changes, He say he change me too. So...Over Is over !!! Hhahah XD no need think too much XD He have he new life and i have my new life also^^

--- ::: I'm fine now ^^ ::: ---

Erm , Just Now send msg to Yan say merry christmas , then he call me.
He say "you send msg to me you dont scared ur family will scold u meh ?"
I say no problem, cause everything i "gao tim" jor ^^ muahaha XD
Am i pround leh XD muahahahha XD

But he like sad, no go out , no play no hang out v friend. Alone at home oioi.
This i really cant believe oo....cause this few day he friend find him go out play also.
Last few day he go disco leh, somemore scold me ask me off phone,
Cause he scared he will scold me...haiz...really don't know what he done lo.
But....i no more worry him too much leh XD haha XD no more heart pain pain.
Erm...worry got la, but he dont tell i also nvm jor lo XD hhehehe XD

Then i keep saying myself leng liu XD he vomit ^^ but i know he happy,
same like last time la, if i do stupid can make him happy feel not so lonely , then what i also will do k.
hahaha XD so stupid o ? Haiz...nvm la ..... Xi Guan Jiu Hao ^^

So i ask him my fs new pic leng liu mor ^^ skin so white white so leng leh XD
Sure la i drink soya bean mah ^^ hahah XD then he say me betul betul perasan XD
Blek XD But i also happy and fun ^^ Cause can hear he laught voice ^^ not bad right ^^
After that i say next year he 21 year old birthday, have celebrate anot he say no.
Then i say next year he 21 birthday i promise i will celebrate v him. He and me ^^
Cause he say he never celebrate birthday be4, just when he 20 year old i hang out v him.
Erm , so...next year what i wan buy leh ? WEI WEI WEI !! DONT mistake ok ???
Me and him just a friend now, k ? don't think too much ^^

I already be fine all la ^^ hahah , wont return ^^ so...just be friend v him la..
You know i so sayang him k la XD as a friend also ^^ muahahahahah XD
i also very sayang Ah Boy, Yee Tat And Patrick also neh ^^ All Also my important friends ^^
Love You All ^^

Sure have my lovely jie mei la ^^ Xiao Ran, Babystar, Biang Biang , Xiao Yu, Betty, And alot alot k ^^
Hahaha , i too much jie mei jor ^^ All i also very love k ^^
Cause when i have problem you all will stay v me ^^ I really very very gam dong ^^

K la, stop here la, wish u all merry christams ^^ muacks ^^

PS: i become boy jor, Yan become girl jor ^^ hahha XD me is leng zai he is leng liu XD Next time call me leng zai call him leng liu lo^^ muahahahah XD yeah yeah yeah ^^

~ ::: Thanks Friends ::: ~

Well , last time i thought i love my new lover , but untill today i just know...
i treat him as my best best friends. When he need me or when i have problem i always find him.
I like him ,not love....He my best best friend , the one who i can believe....
I....i love who i really dont know.....maybe i be back last time when i haven have any lover be4 ^^
HAHAH , i become tom boy again XD yahooo oo ^^

This few day have patrick chatt v me, cause yee tat suddenly dun talk v me anymore Y_Y
I very the sob sob , Don't know what going on also. Like last time , suddenly dont talk v me Y_Y
But also thanks patrick have chatt v me ^^ And i'm the first to see he webcam oo ^^
Happy Happy ^^hehe ^^ But for Ah Boy....Am i the first see ur webcam also ? I hope so.

Haiz...don't know la , i like Ah Boy, i like Yee Tat , i like Patrick also...haiz...
Nvm lo, as Ah Boy say, they no say wan together v u also, so no need think too much ^^
Waahahhaha XD Ah boy, I very remember what you tell me oo ^^ cause really very Cool ^^
Muahahhahaha XD Like like Ah Boy ^^ Sayang Sayang You All ^^ Keep Friendship 4ever ok ?
Love Ya Guys ^^ Muacks ^^

~ ::: Wtf Last Time I Write This All ?! ::: ~

LOL ! I FOUND IT LAST TIME WHAT STUPID THING I SEND TO YAN!
REALLY VERY STUPID, NOW WHEN I READ BACK REALLY VERY FUNNY AND LAUGHT MYSELF.
IF HE READ IT , HE SURE LAUGH ME AS A STUPID AND CRAZY GIRL !!! HAIZ...
REALLY VERY HOU HUI I'M LET HE LAUGH Y_Y START NOW BE BRAVE ,
NO MORE LET GUY LOOK DOWN ^^

"yan, u no check here right ? well...untill now...we really nth can say anymore, for me,
u 4ever cant be my bf...u say last time i because of myself i broke v u,
but now u because of myself u broke v me, if u say i'm the one "shou xing yong" the girl,
we early already wont be together... because of u i changes alot but u dun care , u dun mind...
u hurt me so bad u make me feel so scared u, but i sure u will changes, but....i keep my dream 5 week,
keep lying myself 5 week....so what i get ? i get friend and family scold.. for u, sure say...
"na ge shi ni zi ji na lai de" u know last time when i hear u say it how hurt i have ?

not one time, so many time.... i dun understand u, but u let me fall in love v u...how come ?
how come i will love the person like u ? i dun know also...yan...i very love u, i very miss u....
but i more hate u...u say...u never be my bf anymore, how hurt i have ?
u say u love me but u have other gf u tell me u like her only...what the different ?
still have feeling right ?a person can have feeling v so many girl i really hard to think about it...
who am i for u ? last time...now i know...we not couple, not ai mei, not friend anymore...i really....
so scared u now...i was just a normal girl, for my friend and family, my life was like u, but for u...
my life was like ur thinking it...i be what also let ppl trow...who am i ?rubbish ?u dun reply me,
cause i know u will angry and say i think too much...this was me, like to think so much..
that's why i wish have one ppl who can just love me...care me, teach me, hug me, hold me...
i thought u the only one...maybe u say i hurt u first but...at the end...i have ask u back...but u dun wan..
i keep do alot thing u dun wna..i dun know what can i say...i dun wan cry anymore,
i dun wan hurt anymore...but i keep loving u so much...why ?

yan...i really wish u back but i know u wont...u scared me, i scared u also...i tell myself,
no matter who are u, how u are, i wont mind..if u say that saturday i see u and say alot thing hurt u...
if that words i tell was true, at the end, i wont care u and hug u..if i really say untill u so bad...
i wont hug u...u know...that time u make me feel wanna kiss u but u have gf so i control it... u wan my kiss...
but u dun wan be my bf , how come ? why i support to give u ?
maybe around the girl for u was open mind girl...but i'm not...sorry yan...i know what u think i hurt u...
why u scared me..why u angry me..i really dun know what can i say cause when i care and love ppl i will do it...if u keep thinking u like space just go..u can no need talk anymore..i like space also,
but i wish the one who care me and love me will stay v me... i wan he know all my thing,
also wish i can know all his thing..u cant give me i wan , i cant give u what u wan...so...as u say so....
we not match, if u already understand it, pls...dun tou tou la la, u say me tou tou la la cant give u up..
but u know what u told me ?i love the person told me he still love me what can i do ?

u say i for u more then like but not love...so means ??i hate this kind of thing u know ?like then like. love then love...dun say i force u, cause not everything have middle...yes then yes, no then no...dun have dun know...i think u still dun understand it...nvm...i will find one guy more care me and love me more then u...and i will forgot u cause u hurt me so bad i will hate u 4ever...and i wont forgive u...4ever...yan....bao zhong....i......... ..........u"

MUahahaha XD Finally i remember why last time i will so hate him XD i remember all the thing la ^^
Say Goodbye to my ex bf 4ever ^^ BB Lo ^^

* ::: 昨晚怎么啦? ::: *

我醒了，昨晚....我做了什么? 好像发了梦呢，梦到阳打给我然后骂我，过后还梦到我和Ah Boy聊天^^
嘻嘻，他的声音真性感噢^^ 可是我好像那时候在幽魂一样，都不知道自己说了什么，
只知道很累很想睡觉，然后正身发热。全身的血好像在玩马拉松是的，冲得很快。

到我醒了得时候我才发现原来我裸睡了，真奇怪，好像有一点点的印象是我自己脱的。
又好像没有，哎呀，不管啦，反正在家，一定没有事的。
醒了之后我发现我电话没有钱了，奇怪...昨晚回家前我才进了RM30。
醒了就只有RM0.15而已....!!!?????!!!!怎么会这样....Y_Y
心痛死了。电话里有说我昨晚和阳还要祥聊天而已。可是....我说了什么?
好像记得有被阳骂是的，我做了什么啊? 哎呀管他的。
Erm....醒了得时候，我发现我在想我的New Lover。然后就笑了，我该高兴吗?
我好像越来越爱他了^^ 对阳....好像越来越没感觉了^^ 可是还是的谢谢阳一直以来对我冷淡啦，
要不然我也不会有新的爱人噢^^ 嘻嘻。高兴^^

可是....不知道为什么，昨晚一边唱歌一边看我的阳的照片然后又哭了。
我还喜欢他? 应该不会吧。希望不会噢.....唉....爱情就是那么的烦人，
爱了不该爱得人会痛苦，被回忆牵连这也是痛苦。真是的，不管啦。
反正阳又不会爱我的啦，我的New Lover又不会要我的。那算了。
自己一个玩个痛快^^ Disco , pup, clubbing.....muahahhaha XD
Yeah Yeah Yeah , wait for me disco, pup, clubbing ^^
I'm coming ^^

* ::: --- AM I DRUNK ? NO !!!! --- ::: *

I don't know what can i do now ? Very confuse, me and ah yan, just can be memory only.
I keep thinking how sweet last time we are.
When he drunk v friends, he will phone me, and he so blur keep saying that he love me so much.
And say wan married me, wan me stay v him. And alot alot he love me.
I feel so warm that time, i really full love him .

And when he free he will phone me ask me doing what,
He will worry me, care me and sayang me.
Always when i feel sad or start say wan broke v him, no matter that time is 3.00am ,
He also will wake up and phone me, ask me why why why,
And keep asking me what he done wrong ? Then when i say out just know is my mistake.
And turn me sayang him back. Think back last time i really don't wish to off phone.
Always talk untill no credit just off phone. I really love him so deep last time.

Always have phone sweet talk, always keep listen he singing , then say how much he love me.
When i say wan broke v him he cry, when i listen he voice my heart broke, and together back v him XD
Hahahah XD am i bad ? Hehe, but....really love him so deep.
And when he so serious answer my question and talk v me i also feel he dont love me anymore.
Feel him dont care me anymore , after that he scold me, scold me so strong, i shock.
But i smile and happy ^^ When he so angry scold me i tell him i so happy XD
Cause i feel him really care me and worry me XD Heheh XD think back last time i really very "Fan Zin"

Guys, did you know why i wan say this all ? Hahah, cause i drunk now too XD
I drink bear XD Tiger bear XD That taste not good !!! Bad....!!!! Somemore not so drunk also !!
I wan drunk !!! So drunk that one !!! I don't wan think too much thing !!!
I no drunk now !!! I very clear now !!! I keep thinking back last time how sweet me and Ah Yan...
I keep writing and say how much and how bad he hurt me ....
But i never say how much he care and love me also...Am i wrong again ?

Still remember last time he are the first person who believe me, (cause no one believe me be4)
He give me he msn and fs pass words, somemore he tell me everday what he doing,
Everysecond phone me make me happy ^^
He let me chatt v his msn the girl, he wan me believe him so he never lie me,
Because of this all, that why why i will so believe him, But i feel he changes, he lie me now...
Am my feeling wrong again ? Don't know, but i chooes too believe him.
I really love last time the shin, not now the elson...Shin so sayang me k, Elson not sayang me k.
Always scold me k Y_Y hate elson....sayang and care Shin only....
Shin Shin Shin , muacks muacks muacks, love you love you love you so much ^^
Shin are the best, he is guai guai zai ^^ He is good ppl, he is nice guys. Sayang him more more ^^
Muacks Muacks Muacks~~~

No need think too much also...last time he will find me and explain why why why.
And now ? Never , he just say "if you believe me then no matter i have answer anot u also will believe."
He treat me so cool, he treat me so bad now !! He heart never for me anymore !!!
I keep thinking last time how sweet how sweet for what !!!! All is past !! Is over !!! Never return !!!
He not my Shin anymore !!! He are Elson now !!!! That who kick my Shin away !!!! I Hate Elson !!!
I Love Shin so much !!! I wan him back !!! But if he really back, would us will be back like last time ??!?!
Never !! The answer is never !!! He changes !!! He wont explain what i thinking !! He wont care me anymore !!
He treat me so cool !! I love him but i hate him more !!!

Shin Shin Shin , I want you back !! Did you love me ? Would you care me like last time !!!
No ? HAhahaha , i know the answer !!! I early know the answer !!! Am so stupid !!! REALLY STUPID!!!

New lover....We forever just can be best friends....HAHAHAHAHA.....YAYAYA XD
FOREVER BEST FRIEND LEH !!!! HAHAHAHHAHA XD New Lover treat me so cold also leh XD
Hhahahahaha XD So Cold So Cold !!!! I Love the guys never love me anymore, never care me anymore !!!
HHAhahahahah , start new life, Keep PLaying Over and over !!! Start My Life !!! BE PLAY GIRL !!!!
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH !!!!!!!! I WAN DRUNK EVERYDAY !!!!!!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOO ~~~~~~~~~
LALALLALALALA , BLA BLA BLABLA BLA...........HEHEHEHEHE ............HOHOHOHO...........HAHAHHAHAH
CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY , SUPER CRAZY DANCER AND CRAZY TIME !!!!! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!!

SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHINSHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN SHIN
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HAHAHAHAH , OVER OVER OVER !!! WE ARE OVER !!! ONE NIGHT !!! LET ME FORGOT YOU !!!
HEHEHEHEH~~~~ !!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEXT YEAR I CAN GO DISCO ALREADY !!!!
WHO WAN COME V ME !!!! HAHAHAH !!! LEAVE ME YOUR NAME !! ANYWAY, I WILL ASK IN FS WHEN I HAVE GO !!!! YEAH !!! YEAH !!!!! CLUBBING !!! PUP !!! DISCO !!! BOOM BOOM BOOM , BIBIBIBI, BABABABBA!!
WAHAHAHAHHAHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* --- I love who now ? --- *

I love who now ? New lover ? Or Yan ?
I don't know, i very confuse, this few day i keep thinking my new lover.
But he so cold and cool to me already . What can i do ?
Remember what i tell you be4 ? I will open alot new blog for who i love,
And i worder y i will open this blog also, Now i just know.
Because of you, But all is too late. You never be mine anymore.
I'm so sorry last time i don't have "Hao Hao Zhen Xi Ni"
Pls forgive me....

Yao Wo Shuo Zhu Fu Ni De Hua Wo Ban Bu Dao.
Dui Bu Qi. Dan Yao Wo Zhu Ni Tian Tian Kuai Le Wo Hai Ke Yi.

Wish You Happy everyday and second.

~ ::: --- Say goodbye new lover --- ::: ~

Last time i say already , i have like one boy. He help me alot, no matter what problem he also help me.
I always just leave him alone, when i have problem just find him.
But just now i know he have gf already, my heart so pain, i get hurt.
And i start think, am i love him ? I guess so.
Am i love yan ? I don't know....maybe me and Yan, just a closer friend,
I was normal to care him, but not a love.
And v the others boy....i...love him ? I'm not sure, but one thing i sure is ,
When i know he have gf my heart so pain, i get a damn big hurt.
How come ? Now i really very very "Hou Hui" why last time i give him up.
I hurt him so much , but also very thanks of him i just can be all right now.

Wan me say "Zhu ni xing fu?" sorry i cant.
But i can say is...Wish u happy 4ever too.
Anything, i also welcome you find me, but i know you wont.
You have too much girl's friends find already. Me is who ? nothing....
Thanks for teach me alot thing, i....... I love you, so much so much.
I dont know i love yan anot, and i also dont know what the feeling v me and you.
But one thing i know is at this time, i really wish you beside me, i wan hug you and tell you 100000000 time.
I love you so much , i love you more then everything. I love you untill never end.
You give me a new life, i wont break it, i will continue my new life, i wont care and think too much.
I know you wont stand beside me anymore, and i promise i will take care myself.
Never do stupid thing anymore. And i wont return v Yan also.

I love you I love You I love you.....Untill i say sorry v you...i hurt you so much.
Take care and Bye....My new lover....

~ * ::: Should I believe him ? ::: * ~

What can i do now ? Who can help me ? Yesterday Yan suddenly phone me,
And unlucky my mum was stay beside me, she scold him and ask him off phone,
I dun know what can i do so i ask him off phone also.
And later more i send msg to him, i say
"Don't broke v others girl then just come back find me, i hate you so much"
And he reply, "Wtf ! When i together v someone? Don't blame me ok? Anyway, i wont' find you anymore."
I shock ! What the means ? I reply him again
"Everyone also say u are lynnette ex bf. Somemore say u both meet be4. Don't tell me this not true."
"Wtf, when i meet her? when i together v her ? why myself i don't know. You all this ppl really have problem. Always blame me."

I really get schock. Am i wrong again? Am i blame him again?
I almost forgot , Last time untill now how many friend blame him, hurt him and lie me.
Why i wan listen them ? Why i don't believe Yan ?
But...If they no together, how come he send fs comment to lynnette say thanks for accpet him ?
And why he msn in family there have her email ?
And why lynnette say they broke already ?

Yan the answer is he sure he never together v her, and maybe is last time they so close only.
But how come ? Untill now i dun know who correct who wrong, i very confuse ?
Am i wrong again ? Should believe him ? Is it my friend lie me again ?
Oh God ! What going on now ? Last time i because he together v my friend that why no more return.
But now he say he never together v my friend !!! How come ? Am i find him back ?
Am i forgive him back ? Am i say sorry ? But anything i also haven comfirm yet.
My friends all so sure he have together v lynnette be4 !
Why he say no ?

Now is who correct who wrong ? Oh Jesus !!! Help me!!!
Should i believe him ???

But when i think untill here , i remember what Ah Boy say.
"You think too much for what ? Did he say he mind ? Did he say he wan together v you again ? No.
The answer is no! Then what for you think too much?"
At that time, i stop crying ! And i no send any msg to him anymore.
I quite ! Ah Boy was right , he never say anything also.
No say love me or what. Even he no together v lynnette we still cant together.
Cause he love that person was not me ! Is Kah Hee !!! This is one thing i sure!

But i will check the true thing, i wont let any friend blame him anymore.
I hope and wish he no lie me !
I will find the true way , as a friends or what....i wont let anyone hurt him or blame him anymore!!!

Ps: WHO WAN BLAME HIM PLS FUCK UR MOTHER WAY OFF!!! WHAT HE DONE TO YOU GUYS!! WHY YOU ALL KEEP HURTING HIM !!! FUCK OFF PLS (For yan friends and my school friends only) !!! Yan , I believe you 4ever, hope u no lie me. And i swear be4, no matter how, if you really have problem pls find me, i always be the first in here for you. No matter you treat as a friends or what. I also will be right here for you. I don't care you love me anot, i just don't wish see u sad only. This is i swear and promise be4, anything, just find me.

~ ::: I love you so, that why i hate u so too ::: ~

What the feeling i have now ?
What the problem v me now ?
What the matter v me now ?

I think i really crazy...Say don't cry still cry...
Say don't think still think.
Think much for what ?
Cry much for what ?

Think more hurt more.
Cry more hate more.

Really.....don't know what can i do now.
Last time i don't wan find any school bf reason have one,
Cause i don't wan together who are my friend bf or ex bf only.
I keep finding so long just meet one my Damn Full Love the guy only.
Why ? And how come ?
At the end , he still is my friend bf !!!

How can i accept it ? I keep everyday thinking of it.
Keep everyday blame god why wan treat me like this ?
How could he do this for me ?
If he together v her is wan hurt me or let me know he have alot ppl love and dun wish i "hou hui",
then now i will say ....
"congratulation, you do it. You hurt me so deep, and u make me hate u so deep too untill i wont be [hou hui] leave u."

I really....wan be brave of this first love....hope my second love, i wont hurt untill like this.

You never know, I love you so deep , that why i hate u so deep too....

/// --- ` How much he hurt me ? ` --- ///

How much he hurt me ?

1st is he never tell me he like that girl. When we are together.
2nd is he know i love him but he together v her. He promise i will be her last gf. (But i keep telling myself we are broke, so...i forgive him)
Then 3rd is he tell me he hug the girl so strong and kiss her. (he know i love him y he tell me about this all ?)
4th is he tell me he have sex v that girl. How much i cry at that night ? I keep crazy that night and telling myself not my problem anymore.
5th is [he together v the girl] but he tell me he not love that girl just like, he wan me wait him.
He say he love me, then i say i scared she have baby so i don't wan together v him.
And he say give him two month , when he confirm she no baby he will back to me.

Well ok, i wait, but when i waiting he tell me ["sorry, he really full love v that girl"] this 6th hurt.
7th is when they fight and he say he wan die i worry about him and phone him.
But he scold me, he say he wan listen her voice, not me, and scold me dun kacau him. How hurt is it.
8th is when the girl cold v him then he come and find me back.
9th is when they broke i care him and keep phone him and make he feel better.
But he tell me "i love that girl is look like you love me do deep." This is hurt . Really damn big hurt.
I ask him come back v me, i still love him so deep. He don't wan, later he say he will think about it.
Then at night he suddenly say he is my bf. Swt right, he say "if u don't wan is ok, i don't mind"
Sure i say no la i wan. That time i damn love him.
10th is he send me alot msg is say something like he love me, like the girl broke v him is because of me.

I start thinking he together v me is it he scold v the girl ? Is it the girl don't wan back v him and ask him find me back so he do ? He sure i wont leave him, so...is it ? He don't love me, but he never tell me, he send me alot msg is say he love me, but what he tell me and do to me all is so cold , and i can feel it he not love me.
I open one love sad song let him listen, then he say "Still love her so?" I hurt i sad , i early know he love her.
I early know i will lose untill so bad. But what can i do ? I give him last chance, he send msg say he love me,
I wan he tell me the true he love her, but he don't wan say, cause he say he don't wan remember it.
And all is past, then i ask him say he don't love her, he quite, he don't wan say, i early already know it.
i sad and cry is because he lie me. And i know one thing from my friend is...

He still Love the ipoh girl so deep, he love her but never action.
He like me not love but he together v me. When i know this news, i broke up v him.
No more chance, and i say be4 this is last chance...i lose...
i keep crying and get a really damn big hurt this few month.
I really don't understand y... if he tell me the true i wont be hurt deep like this.

But no matter how, i still have think give him one more chance, cause i know wan he forgot her really hard.
So i still waiting , but...this is really one thing make us 4ever cant be together again is...
He together v my friends. When i know this news i really get a damn big hurt and crazy !!!
Somemore at the same time i get my family scolding also.
I swear i wont be together v my friend bf or ex bf one. I never forgive him what he done it to me.
Never forgot....When i always think we cant be 4ever i really crazy, and getting hurt everynight.

But lucky have Ah Boy and Yee tat. That chatting v me make me feel better.
That time i thought Ah Boy don't wan talk v me anymore,
Cause Yan Scold me say "No wonder Ah Boy also dun wan talk v you anymore, you really idiot!"
but lucky when i really need him he pick up the phone.
He tell me alot thing, It really make me feel better and understand.
Thanks Ah Boy ^^

How much Yan hurt me , I really....don't know....
How much i cry because of him....i don't know...
How much i almost getting crazy... i don't know...
How much i almost pengsan....i don't know...
How much i getting my family scold and hate because of him...i dont' know...

All of this is because too over much that y i don't know...
When i start crying because of him then i keep telling myself ,
think what he done to me, think he together v my friend, he hold her hand, he kiss her, he hug her...
I keep thinking all of this...and make myself more and more hate him and never forgive !!!

I don't wan together v that guy who kiss my friend be4, hug my friend be4, hold my friend be4 !!
Cause i know one thing !!! He is SUPER DIRTY GUY !!!!
I hate him 4ever and ever....
He promise i will be last gf, but he have ipoh girl. Well i...forgive, But....
When he together v my friend the second gf .... i really no more reason forgive him.
When my all friend know he together v lynnette, all of them told me.
Don't love this guys anymore.... He really bad.
I just can agree about it, cause...i really don't wish together v him anymore.

Elson !!! Start When You Touch Her Pls Leave Far Awaya From Me.
I Don't Wan Let You This Fucker Guys Touch Me Again !
And Don't Stand Front Of Me Too !
You Never Know How Much I Hate You !

* ::: --- Today Life --- ::: *

Erm...finally i can borrow the undang CD and download in my computer ^^
Happy neh ^^ And this few day i quite busy yer...
8 morning wake up, someday i sleep early so at 3 morning already wake up.
Really cool huh ^^

But today at 7 morning something i get Yan msg, is say merry chritsmas.
He send two msg for me, at first i dun wan reply him.
But later i send him one msg. I write "Pls don't send any msg to me anymore. Thanks."
So untill now he no more msg come. Is that good ?

Untill 8 o'clock , i have tuition for accounts and maths ^^
I very scared and love this teacher teach ^^
He serious when he was teaching us, but he also good and help us when we have our own problem.
Forexample , Family problem/ Love problem/ Friends problem.
I tell him all my thing last time, lucky he have teach and tell me alot thing i just can be fine now ^^
Thanks En.Hari --- (He name not spell like this, but sound is like this) XD

So at 10 o'clock i finish tuition then waiting for my mum for taking me go Wangsa Permai for learning undang.
I wait wait wait untill sleep, cause i really tired, keep everyday busy ... but i love it ^^
Teacher have told me , i do like this is correct, cause i keep busy so no need think too much.
But untill just now i just know , no matter how i still will think about it. (Yan)
But when i really busy sure forgot to think lo. HEHE XD

Will, continue...i wait my mum untill 11.30 am she will woke up v my younger sis (Yoshiko)
She was cooking Hot Dog , Ham, and Egg for my mum and dad.
But because my dad have work to do so he leave early , at the end....i eat XD
Actually she never cook for me Y_Y sob....So i eat my dad breakfast XD
But this few day i keep eating alot thing v my mum untill so full full full !!!
Haiz...she make me be more fat now Y_Y later don't let me buy new shirt again Y_Y
But last week i already buy XD hahahha XD

We eat and talk untill 12 pm just leave.
But my mum not go to office first, she bring us go to bank and ask me help her put the check desposit.
After that we help my aunt buy food and drink go to her house eat ^^
So at 1 o'clock we are at my aunt house, cause at 1 o'clock the undang there having a break,
So even i go there also no ppl ^^''

Well, at 2.30pm my mum come and fetch me and younger sis leave from my aunt house,.
Sure at first she fetch me go learn undang there, later she bring my sis go her office ^^ (For kacau)
I stay there and learning undang untill 4.30pm .
I know my mum was busy, so i never call her come and fetch me.
I walk to her office. Actually really quite dangerous and far.
But.... think it was keep fit ^^" Cause this few day i walk like this also XD hahah XD
But today unlucky i saw alot malay guys (scared) and dog (geli) ,
I keep finding the way was no one walking... hehe
But lucky today i make myself like aunty so no one calling me XD
Yesterday i wear normal but nicer abit then have alot malay ppl keep calling me --- Ah Mui
But today i be smart already ^^ i wear all aunty shirt XD hehe ^^ look like my grandmum ^^

Finally i use 45 minute walk untill my mum office , when i at her office my mum phone me,
She say "So are you finish it ? I come and fetch u."
Then i tell her "i already in downstay ^^ "

Hahaha , funny right ? erm...i stay my mum office untill 8.00pm just leave.
I have saw my father, but we not like last time talk anymore.
Because that night when he start pushing me and scold me, I never ever forgive him.
I still scared him, still angry and hate him.
He come and talk v me make me laugh , but when i look at him...i just give him a cold smile.
How come we will become like this ? I dun know, i keep asking myself, y i cant forgive him ?
The answer is....I don't know. I don't wish to be like this also, but...really don't know how to face him.
That night is one scary day in my life. I never ever forgot it. How bad he scold me, how strong he pushing me,
How angry he eyes and looking at me, how much he don't believe me....

I hate ppl don't believe me , and don't understand me also.
Well , anyway, finally i leave it. So when i go home my mum fetch me, yoshiko and grandmum go out eat.
We eat untill DAMN FULL !!!!!!!!! Wow , i really fat more now Y_Y
We eat and talk untill 9.52pm leave. When we back home i go bath.

But very strange is when i bathing...i thinkg of "Him"... I keep non stop crying.
Keep non stop telling myself, don't forgive him, don't forgive him.
Then i start thinking what he done,
Last time when we still together actually he have abit feeling v that ipoh girl.
But he never told me, and my feeling tell me he heart not full for me.
But when i tell him i can feel he love others, but he tell me no. And say my feeling wrong.
So i believe him, but when we broke , he tell me, he together v that girl.
And actually last time he very like that girl.
How much he hurt me and lie me.

Will finish crying and bathing, i go in room online and download my CD
This is what i do now ^^

PS : If Ah Boy you saw this msg pls leave comment ok ? Cause now i have something ask u ^^
What happen v you ? I really worry about you, Sayang u ok ? Don't sad sad, others ppl dont wan u i wan u ^^
HAHAHAH XD