* ::: --- Today Life --- ::: *

Erm...finally i can borrow the undang CD and download in my computer ^^
Happy neh ^^ And this few day i quite busy yer...
8 morning wake up, someday i sleep early so at 3 morning already wake up.
Really cool huh ^^

But today at 7 morning something i get Yan msg, is say merry chritsmas.
He send two msg for me, at first i dun wan reply him.
But later i send him one msg. I write "Pls don't send any msg to me anymore. Thanks."
So untill now he no more msg come. Is that good ?

Untill 8 o'clock , i have tuition for accounts and maths ^^
I very scared and love this teacher teach ^^
He serious when he was teaching us, but he also good and help us when we have our own problem.
Forexample , Family problem/ Love problem/ Friends problem.
I tell him all my thing last time, lucky he have teach and tell me alot thing i just can be fine now ^^
Thanks En.Hari --- (He name not spell like this, but sound is like this) XD

So at 10 o'clock i finish tuition then waiting for my mum for taking me go Wangsa Permai for learning undang.
I wait wait wait untill sleep, cause i really tired, keep everyday busy ... but i love it ^^
Teacher have told me , i do like this is correct, cause i keep busy so no need think too much.
But untill just now i just know , no matter how i still will think about it. (Yan)
But when i really busy sure forgot to think lo. HEHE XD

Will, continue...i wait my mum untill 11.30 am she will woke up v my younger sis (Yoshiko)
She was cooking Hot Dog , Ham, and Egg for my mum and dad.
But because my dad have work to do so he leave early , at the end....i eat XD
Actually she never cook for me Y_Y sob....So i eat my dad breakfast XD
But this few day i keep eating alot thing v my mum untill so full full full !!!
Haiz...she make me be more fat now Y_Y later don't let me buy new shirt again Y_Y
But last week i already buy XD hahahha XD

We eat and talk untill 12 pm just leave.
But my mum not go to office first, she bring us go to bank and ask me help her put the check desposit.
After that we help my aunt buy food and drink go to her house eat ^^
So at 1 o'clock we are at my aunt house, cause at 1 o'clock the undang there having a break,
So even i go there also no ppl ^^''

Well, at 2.30pm my mum come and fetch me and younger sis leave from my aunt house,.
Sure at first she fetch me go learn undang there, later she bring my sis go her office ^^ (For kacau)
I stay there and learning undang untill 4.30pm .
I know my mum was busy, so i never call her come and fetch me.
I walk to her office. Actually really quite dangerous and far.
But.... think it was keep fit ^^" Cause this few day i walk like this also XD hahah XD
But today unlucky i saw alot malay guys (scared) and dog (geli) ,
I keep finding the way was no one walking... hehe
But lucky today i make myself like aunty so no one calling me XD
Yesterday i wear normal but nicer abit then have alot malay ppl keep calling me --- Ah Mui
But today i be smart already ^^ i wear all aunty shirt XD hehe ^^ look like my grandmum ^^

Finally i use 45 minute walk untill my mum office , when i at her office my mum phone me,
She say "So are you finish it ? I come and fetch u."
Then i tell her "i already in downstay ^^ "

Hahaha , funny right ? erm...i stay my mum office untill 8.00pm just leave.
I have saw my father, but we not like last time talk anymore.
Because that night when he start pushing me and scold me, I never ever forgive him.
I still scared him, still angry and hate him.
He come and talk v me make me laugh , but when i look at him...i just give him a cold smile.
How come we will become like this ? I dun know, i keep asking myself, y i cant forgive him ?
The answer is....I don't know. I don't wish to be like this also, but...really don't know how to face him.
That night is one scary day in my life. I never ever forgot it. How bad he scold me, how strong he pushing me,
How angry he eyes and looking at me, how much he don't believe me....

I hate ppl don't believe me , and don't understand me also.
Well , anyway, finally i leave it. So when i go home my mum fetch me, yoshiko and grandmum go out eat.
We eat untill DAMN FULL !!!!!!!!! Wow , i really fat more now Y_Y
We eat and talk untill 9.52pm leave. When we back home i go bath.

But very strange is when i bathing...i thinkg of "Him"... I keep non stop crying.
Keep non stop telling myself, don't forgive him, don't forgive him.
Then i start thinking what he done,
Last time when we still together actually he have abit feeling v that ipoh girl.
But he never told me, and my feeling tell me he heart not full for me.
But when i tell him i can feel he love others, but he tell me no. And say my feeling wrong.
So i believe him, but when we broke , he tell me, he together v that girl.
And actually last time he very like that girl.
How much he hurt me and lie me.

Will finish crying and bathing, i go in room online and download my CD
This is what i do now ^^

PS : If Ah Boy you saw this msg pls leave comment ok ? Cause now i have something ask u ^^
What happen v you ? I really worry about you, Sayang u ok ? Don't sad sad, others ppl dont wan u i wan u ^^
HAHAHAH XD