` ::: --- No more return --- ::: `

Last two day i have a dream, i dream about my friend...
That one who together v "Yan".... Lynnette.
I dream school already start, me and my friend all sit and talk v her....

Suddenly i smile and ask, how are u v him ?
She so cold and say they so early already broke. Long time no contact.
I shock , then i wake up. Y ? Y the god wan me dream about it ?
I dream they will together is half year ago, so i thought they will half year later broke.
So i no care about it, i just wake up and cry, why i need dream this ?
Is it god wan me find him back ? Wan me care about him again ?

At this time i think back last time how he hurt me.
I angry i hate , i never forgive, never forgot how he done this all to me.
Never forgot how i fight v my parents those few day.
And never forgot how i past all the night....How much i cry how much i scared.

How many friend i need keep chatting and make me happy.
I don't wanna return. So i never find him.
Untill just now...my friend online tell me, both of them already broke.
And i tell her, that not my problem anymore, how hard i just can be fine, i don't wan return.
And i swear before, when he start together v her he need know.
He will 4ever lost me, no matter they broke anot,
i 4ever and never wont together v him anymore.

Never forgive, never forgot , no matter how i still hurt now....
I will control this time...i wont care him anymore.
I still remember last time i ask him , why i can because of him i do anything.
But he cannot because of me do others thing.
And how hurt he answer is "That is ur problem , i never ask u to do, u can say don't wan what."
This answer are hurt, so at that time i know one more human face side again.

I never ever forgot and never ever forgive him.
I keep thinking alot alot thing and make myself more and more hate him.
I hate him untill i hate whole worlds guys too.
And next year i having SPM also, i don't wan have any bf also.
I need get a good result and go for colloge or oversea for study.
I cant lost, i can't fall, i can't let him look me down also.
I need try my best. No matter now how much i sick or tired i still wont give up of study.

I wish i can control myself and never ever forgive him , wish i wont be "xin luan".
This few day i keep dreaming scary dream , fight v family, no friend, keep alone.
I already learn, i need be how cool and cold just can life.
So this time , i need be SUPER BRAVE AND STRONG !!!!!!!!!

BIG GIRL DON'T CRY & BIG GIRL NO MORE CRY !!!