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How much he hurt me ?

1st is he never tell me he like that girl. When we are together.
2nd is he know i love him but he together v her. He promise i will be her last gf. (But i keep telling myself we are broke, so...i forgive him)
Then 3rd is he tell me he hug the girl so strong and kiss her. (he know i love him y he tell me about this all ?)
4th is he tell me he have sex v that girl. How much i cry at that night ? I keep crazy that night and telling myself not my problem anymore.
5th is [he together v the girl] but he tell me he not love that girl just like, he wan me wait him.
He say he love me, then i say i scared she have baby so i don't wan together v him.
And he say give him two month , when he confirm she no baby he will back to me.

Well ok, i wait, but when i waiting he tell me ["sorry, he really full love v that girl"] this 6th hurt.
7th is when they fight and he say he wan die i worry about him and phone him.
But he scold me, he say he wan listen her voice, not me, and scold me dun kacau him. How hurt is it.
8th is when the girl cold v him then he come and find me back.
9th is when they broke i care him and keep phone him and make he feel better.
But he tell me "i love that girl is look like you love me do deep." This is hurt . Really damn big hurt.
I ask him come back v me, i still love him so deep. He don't wan, later he say he will think about it.
Then at night he suddenly say he is my bf. Swt right, he say "if u don't wan is ok, i don't mind"
Sure i say no la i wan. That time i damn love him.
10th is he send me alot msg is say something like he love me, like the girl broke v him is because of me.

I start thinking he together v me is it he scold v the girl ? Is it the girl don't wan back v him and ask him find me back so he do ? He sure i wont leave him, so...is it ? He don't love me, but he never tell me, he send me alot msg is say he love me, but what he tell me and do to me all is so cold , and i can feel it he not love me.
I open one love sad song let him listen, then he say "Still love her so?" I hurt i sad , i early know he love her.
I early know i will lose untill so bad. But what can i do ? I give him last chance, he send msg say he love me,
I wan he tell me the true he love her, but he don't wan say, cause he say he don't wan remember it.
And all is past, then i ask him say he don't love her, he quite, he don't wan say, i early already know it.
i sad and cry is because he lie me. And i know one thing from my friend is...

He still Love the ipoh girl so deep, he love her but never action.
He like me not love but he together v me. When i know this news, i broke up v him.
No more chance, and i say be4 this is last chance...i lose...
i keep crying and get a really damn big hurt this few month.
I really don't understand y... if he tell me the true i wont be hurt deep like this.

But no matter how, i still have think give him one more chance, cause i know wan he forgot her really hard.
So i still waiting , but...this is really one thing make us 4ever cant be together again is...
He together v my friends. When i know this news i really get a damn big hurt and crazy !!!
Somemore at the same time i get my family scolding also.
I swear i wont be together v my friend bf or ex bf one. I never forgive him what he done it to me.
Never forgot....When i always think we cant be 4ever i really crazy, and getting hurt everynight.

But lucky have Ah Boy and Yee tat. That chatting v me make me feel better.
That time i thought Ah Boy don't wan talk v me anymore,
Cause Yan Scold me say "No wonder Ah Boy also dun wan talk v you anymore, you really idiot!"
but lucky when i really need him he pick up the phone.
He tell me alot thing, It really make me feel better and understand.
Thanks Ah Boy ^^

How much Yan hurt me , I really....don't know....
How much i cry because of him....i don't know...
How much i almost getting crazy... i don't know...
How much i almost pengsan....i don't know...
How much i getting my family scold and hate because of him...i dont' know...

All of this is because too over much that y i don't know...
When i start crying because of him then i keep telling myself ,
think what he done to me, think he together v my friend, he hold her hand, he kiss her, he hug her...
I keep thinking all of this...and make myself more and more hate him and never forgive !!!

I don't wan together v that guy who kiss my friend be4, hug my friend be4, hold my friend be4 !!
Cause i know one thing !!! He is SUPER DIRTY GUY !!!!
I hate him 4ever and ever....
He promise i will be last gf, but he have ipoh girl. Well i...forgive, But....
When he together v my friend the second gf .... i really no more reason forgive him.
When my all friend know he together v lynnette, all of them told me.
Don't love this guys anymore.... He really bad.
I just can agree about it, cause...i really don't wish together v him anymore.

Elson !!! Start When You Touch Her Pls Leave Far Awaya From Me.
I Don't Wan Let You This Fucker Guys Touch Me Again !
And Don't Stand Front Of Me Too !
You Never Know How Much I Hate You !