~ ::: I love you so, that why i hate u so too ::: ~

What the feeling i have now ?
What the problem v me now ?
What the matter v me now ?

I think i really crazy...Say don't cry still cry...
Say don't think still think.
Think much for what ?
Cry much for what ?

Think more hurt more.
Cry more hate more.

Really.....don't know what can i do now.
Last time i don't wan find any school bf reason have one,
Cause i don't wan together who are my friend bf or ex bf only.
I keep finding so long just meet one my Damn Full Love the guy only.
Why ? And how come ?
At the end , he still is my friend bf !!!

How can i accept it ? I keep everyday thinking of it.
Keep everyday blame god why wan treat me like this ?
How could he do this for me ?
If he together v her is wan hurt me or let me know he have alot ppl love and dun wish i "hou hui",
then now i will say ....
"congratulation, you do it. You hurt me so deep, and u make me hate u so deep too untill i wont be [hou hui] leave u."

I really....wan be brave of this first love....hope my second love, i wont hurt untill like this.

You never know, I love you so deep , that why i hate u so deep too....