- ::: Ah Boy I'm Sorry ::: -

Finally i tell ah boy what i done wrong already, he say forgive me, but chatt long ...i ask him, he mind girl not virgin ? Last time he say dont mind also, and now he say that's are play girl, so already done then never mind. Then i say i also play girl what, then he say if i am play girl then pls leave far away from him, dont near him, he dont wan. Then i suddenly so angry , my fs profile really write play girl, and i thought he know last time i keep playing also, i thought he will understand me, and now ??? NO, he...mind it...why ? After he ask me leave far away from him then i write "Bye Bye" then offline go bath.

Finish bath i online, he never find me anymore, maybe he busy working, i dont know. How come he will like this ? Even dont know me the Alice also know i love him, how come he not trust me ? I like play, but i never play love, maybe last time i hurt him be4, but now i really wont hurt him, he dont trust me, i feel so sad. I become like last time when it together v Shin again, i write a msg for Ah Boy, but i never send out again, look like last time me and Shin right ? write damn alot msg but one also never send out, untill now i delete all.

But now think about it is it my fault again ? Am i wrong ? Should i never make this joke of him ? He look serious about that, i know he get hurt be4, so i scared send that msg to him, cause i write [he a pig, even i like to play also wont play love and wont hurt him,] because of this few words so i never send out, i hurt him be4, i play others guy love be4, so few only !!! and i swear 3 day then i broke v them !!! And i have tell them i dont love them , just they wan only !! When i really feel cant love them then i broke up, i know this is hurt them but ...i also dont wan what...That time i keep love Shin so deep, who also cant accept. And now ah boy... i also dont know how, today Elson phone me he say when he birthday that day , he ask us all come out meet and celebrated v him. I dont know how to face him and ah boy at the same time.

Cause i know when Elson was here, i will always hug him kiss him hold him and sayang him so much. But i hope that day he will push me away, i really so wish can touch Elson again, but...what for ? Elson and me and my friends make alot trouble, i dont wish to bother it anymore. Ah boy and me was very happy now, no scolding, no fighting, no hurting, i thought everything was be go on like this, who know...i fight v ah boy just now Y_Y i very very sad now Y_Y How come ? Am i wrong again ? but he should know i love him, and we say already, if past one year more i love others boy then he give me up, untill now i still love Shin so much (But i have tell ah boy be4, he agree, and he know someday i will back v him), i say be4 what, no one can take Shin part of my heart. But Elson...i dont know.

I dont know what Elson done today, he phone me and look like happy, he ask me when he birthday he think i already get P lessen right ? I say i dont know, cause my undang really so bad now Y_Y i dont even know BM. How to take the test ? I have study, i have go learn and play, but...still cant. Really very very sad now. HEI !! THE PROBLEM NOW NOT ELSON AND MY "P" LESSEN !!! THE PROBLEM NOW IS AH BOY AND ME !!!! I dont wish to scold v him, he so care me and teach me alot thing, i really wan continue this relationship v him. Ah boy i'm so sorry...i like to play but i promise i wont play u...i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.

Haiz...who actually understand me ?