♥ --- Sorry i'm love you so much --- ♥

Well, my undang....is FAIL ! As all my family say, i'm not fail that sure not me. Well, i dont mind this all, cause i also know it XD hahah. Haiz...i fail, but i know one girl be my friend also. Her name is Cui Xian, she a very funny and cute girl, beside she very love to take pic also. I very happy about it ^^ Both of use fail, i get 34/50 Y_Y she get 40/50. We already say next week we gambateh again ^^ hahaha, as my mum say, even how i everyday keep study also no use, cause for my brain, i need to be more work harder then ppl ×3 . Haiz, really...cham...hope my SPM will get pass!

Well, when i was on the way going home ah boy was phone me, and when my cousin hear i talk v boy then she angry, say wan go eat later no go also. FUCK ! I very super hungry leh ! Whole day no eat also ! DIU! After that i keep chatting v ah boy lo, but he since like busy. So i off his phone, later he send msg say me bad, ask me dont choi him anymore. Then i say dont choi dont choi lo, got gold leh! But he need to care me XD

Anyway, when i back home my first sis call me ask me wan go sing K anot, sure i say yes! Cause i always wan go sing it XD We go the curve red box sing, at 6.00pm sing untill 9.30pm, we sing alot old and new song. I very happy today, and one thing good was i no crying, when i back home, i ask my sis wherether can go sg.wang and ts anot? I wan buy cloth, btw i also wan find shirt for Shin! But sure sis dont know this. So sis agree tomorrow we go sg.wang and ts. I very happy about it.

After that when i ask her Shin also wan follow us go buy cloth can anot they face all changes, and my cousin keep saying last time thing again, i already explain that was mistake! FUCK! Then i very angry go back room, i angry not because sis say NOT ALLOWED SHIN GO OUT V US! I angry is my cousin always like this! When i explain dont listen, after that bla bla bla. I very Du Lan leh ! When i back too room i cry again, i keep talking v myself, why they all like this think shin, he last time do that all too me also not his fault, somemore alot thing also i mistake him. Wan me stop contact v him i cant do that! I very very love him, but i never wish to back v him, cause i know he sure say..."dont know, see lo, this thing i dont have much wish" i know he heart no more me, and i no force him. Already normal, but i really wanna see him.

Always hear he say who who looking at him, who who kiss him, touch him, hug him , he hold who, touch who i very very jealous and angry. But i know i cant. Well, anyway, he happy then enough, i wont stop anything anymore. Later i go bath, when i bathing i smoke again, i think alot thing again, but when i smoke i feel better, no more sad and others, so now just can open computer and write blog. Actually today i dont wan online wan. Haiz...but also Shin ask me online la, say wan chatt something. My shopping sg.wang change already, changes to one utama and go out v my mum. This is changes when i say Shin also wan following us later.

Ah ! I dont know what i'm thinking about ! Dont know what i'm talking about. Haiz...family alreayd got alot problem, for work for family all also! I dont wan give them alot problem anymore. But they wan start keep thinking this and that i also cant control. Just hope they no distrud me then can already, cause i having SPM this year , i really try my best focus on my study. Hope they wont break my moody!

Anyway , actually god today also treat me so good, know one more new friend, going out v sis, give me the heart for make me feel wan study. Last time how lazy i am i already know, but dont know this year why so hard working, really need thanks god alot ^^

Last thing i wan tell is, Shin, i love u i love u i love u so much. I know u dont know i have blog in here, and u wont see it, beside i also no wish u see it too. I never think be4 wan let u know. No matter what u do, wan have new gf, or bully others, or i'm not the only one in ur heart , or i'm not the one u love anymore, or i'm not the special one let u bully anymore i all also dont mind. Just you happy, what i also dont mind, actually i mind and care alot. But i'm not who for you anymore, just you happy....really just u feel do that you will happy...I...will control myself. I'm so sorry i cant put you down. I'm sorry i love you so much.