= ::: What The Hell ::: =

I dont know what can i do now, today in school keep thinking about him again, no matter how i hate him, i still thinking of him. Really very regret why last night i wan online. Anyway, stop talking him here.

Today my club was starting, i join a Wudo club, something like fighting wan, alot guys was get shock cause less girl have join only, 60 people have 6 was girls only, and i'm the most best girl in there. Also can say i better then alot guys also. XD ofcours la, cause i'm fat and my bone so strong wan.

I try join alot thing now, always afterschool then go friend house tuition, when free go badminton club for fun. I always will later home after 7.00pm now. But today when i finish tuition i was talking school thing v my best friend. She know me already have 6 years, i dont know why last year she wan join v that all girl and fight v me, but lucky today she have tell me. I dont know today she treat me good is really good anot. I dont know tomorrow she will tell what i tell her today anot. But i still wan to believe. I dont know why, i let alot ppl fake be4, hurt be4, but i still wan believe them. Some dont have la.

I know why last time all girls was argue v me, cause have alot mistake they know me. I tell her today, i dont wan explain v them cause i'm not really care about what they think me now. And i wont explain for her cause she know me more longer then them. I v her already was 6 year best buddy. Who am i she know more then them. She my only one know 6 year in school now. Others all already finish SPM.

I tell her alot thing, and i know alot thing also. I dont wan be ke po to knwo ppl secret. But atleast i know how they think me now. Say me cheap ? Say me so open ? Say my photo have problem? Say i have mental problem? What the fuck. Who more cheap then who no need i say they all also know, go ppl party wear bikini, i know that party sure wan wear it, but they have wear it i dont have also say me cheap ? I just close v guys, always hug and hold them only, but i'm not who also hug. I ask my best buddy, did she saw i hug or hold or kiss any guys in our class, she say no. Ofcours la, i'm not close v them also. I just will hug who i trust and close friend only.

Say i very open always hug and talking ham sap thing v others? But what i know is they do this more then me, what i know all also they teach me wan. Somemore i always was open mind, have any problem? Why say until they not open mind also? What i know is they more open mind then me what ! My photo have problem? Now everyone also take it, i will delete my friendster cause i dont wan let them see my photo. Cause what i know is when computer class they online sure open school ppl profile and look, look never mind, somemore still wan say more bad thing v them. Really yi ma gu jie , sam gu lok po all also there.

Why people mouth wan me so bad? What i know is they not this bad at all, just like talking ppl bad thing. School have a japan girl new student come, but she dont know speak japanese. But she keep bully people. My class all so hate her cause she keep bully their younger sister. So all fight back. Really no i comment about them. Abit thing then say others Sok Cun, scared them so dont wan fight back or else. Really if clever people still will choose quite right, haiz....what a friends....nonono, is what a classmate i have now.

Boys i think is ok, just girls...really ke po until....no comment. But anyway, this last year, so i also talk some v them. I say not means i agree what they do. Haiz...Anyway, i just try use alot way to stop thinking him only. Never mind la, i will be fine later. Finish this blog i wan on msn see have any msn they leave it to me. If not...then good, if have...then really alamak.

Oh ya, one more, today after i tuition my teacher was pray for me, and i cry, i tell her i have alot hate in my heart, v parents, v friends, v lover. When she pray foor jesus i cry, after that i feel cant breath, i get more and more angry, i know my heart was evil, but she say i look like a good girl, but who know ? Face and heart is different. I let teacher know i cut my hand and try to die be4, she ask me dont do it anymore, i'm sure say ok. Cause i promise Ah Boy be4 i wont hurt myself again, and i also very regret when i saw that...hurt on my hand. Always feel heart so pain can cant forgive and forgot it.

Anywaym still the same, God Bless Me and All Of You All.