* ::: Hope So ::: *

Now is 12.30am, so is time for sleep, cause when 6.00am i need to wake up for school.
I still very scared for school, think about last year, really so hard past one year untill holiday only.
Just now i just finish chatt v ah boy only, i have one thing never tell him.
Just keep saying sorry for him i done wrong thing last time. Really dont know how to tell him.
I still very scared to think about that....so he say tired then offline.

And after he offline elson find me chatt, he send something to me,
"我不知道我须要多长的时间才能真正的把你忘记，我不知道我还是否有想你的勇气，但是我知道我这份爱这份心痛，将会陪伴我一段很长很长得日子，明天将会如何? 我只知道在我内心深处，我会偷偷的把你收藏起来，让自己在宁静的黑暗里，去回味那段想你的孤寂，我们的爱情，不仅仅是一根把我们系在一起的红线，更是一根橡皮筋，彼此的心分别被系在两头，感觉那种向着对方牵引力，可是，随着时间流逝，我们的橡皮筋开始老化，那样日积月累的老化，终有一天，那原本强大的牵引也慢慢消失，拉得太紧的橡皮筋也终于断了。"

This is what he send to me, actually when ah boy just now send he pic to me i also suddenly feel heart pain already, i dun know why, then i go bath, lucky after that nothing already, but when i chatt v him...always chatt v him my heart jump really so fast, i feel so hurt also...dont know why, i thought i already give him up, but my heart tell me, haven...but at least i still can happy and smile to talk v everyone, i ask him why suddenly he write this all to me ? what happen ? write for who? he answer say he write for everyone.

Funny right, i...so hurt, but i just quite, i say "oo", then he say me so guai, sayang me...is it he wan me is be listen what he say ? be guai guai girl dun always scold and say anything ? if really like this, he win...i really dun bother what he say anymore...cause he also never say is because of me right ? Like ah boy say, no need think too much...

Elson really change alot...i really dont know what can i say and do anymore...he just will keep hurting me , scold me, say bad word v me, Like ah boy say again, i already know what type he are...what for i still wan bother about that ? Just as friend listen think he have joke then can lo..right ? Ya, i agree what ah boy say...And i was trying my best to think he was joke....Really really hope, i can do that...

k la, night la, tomorrow still have school, have a nice day everyone. Bye...